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ام سعد's avatar

I definitely am a crazy lady too(an empath they say). So relatable.

Honestly i just shut down sometimes and withdraw but i crawl back after a while; :(

can't run away from who you are after all. What i try to do now is put it in perspective deen wise. Is it healthy? Does this "beloved i am giving" bring me closer to Allah or not? Is it really beneficial for me akhirah wise?

I write notes for myself also. For when i feel that way, that perhaps it is needed for me to recognise that only Allah will be that constant for me and no one else. And when it spirals sometimes, i just hug myself really. Break down and put it back together again and try to build more boundaries. Still just navigating this thing :< because it took me a long time to put a name to this and be aware that this is just who i am and i am not just miserable.

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Maryam | Sisters Flourish's avatar

Hey fellow empath :) I find it nice in a way to see that I'm not the only crazy lady, but kinda sad to realize that many people walk around with the deep empath-ish thoughts...

At the same time, I'm happy & grateful we're living in a time when it's not as hard to unlearn old patterns, relearn new ones, and inshaAllah start to take small steps towards changing perspective, or how we choose to show up in the world. Alhamdulillah for the awareness, alhamdulillah!

I LOVE that no matter how much or how many times I get hurt, it's always SO clear and so easy to see, as you said, that Allah is the only constant. And that re-realization reinforces the connection to Him + detachment from others.

Lots of work left to do! May Allah open doors of khair for us and purify our intention ameen!

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ام سعد's avatar

Aameen <3

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Khadijah Hassan Abdul-azeez's avatar

It really resonates, I shared the voice note while about 3 minutes in because it struck a chord. Occasionally I have thought and prayed about it but it's just like you said - I don't know who I would be if I stopped loving as deep. Thank you for saying these words out loud, JazakiLlahu khayran.

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Maryam | Sisters Flourish's avatar

Aw thank you so much for listening! I'm so glad it resonates and I hope you feel better just knowing you're not alone ❤️ May Allah ease our affairs and control our hearts, ameen!

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ام سعد's avatar

big big hugs, loved this!❤️

BarakAllahu feeki. May Allah purify us and allow us to love Him more than anything and anyone, aameen.

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Maryam | Sisters Flourish's avatar

Big hugs right back, Fatimah!

Ameen, ameen, ameen!

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